You have remained to be calm so far, which is a great thing, if we take the amount of the stress and anxiety you are / have been going through, that's a big step and great achievement.
But there's actually a person who's masterminding some events to give you stress and anxiety, and that person is doing her / his best not letting you to have peace.
That person is determined to give you stress and anxiety, however you need find the balance and you need to find a way of progressing slowly, the only way will be cutting the cords.
